Pregnancy comes with loads of surprises and shocks. I, was always an introvert , but now I’m a changed person . Now I try to speak my mind , although it is never an easy stride for me but I still try …and when say what I wanted to , I feel light .
I always wanted to be a mother. I remember when everyone was filling the slam book for the first time (very much in fashion before and after 2005), I had written that having a child was my one of the dreams in life. For few years, I used to say that to and people found it a bit weird because I was not in an affair even then I wanted to be a mother.
‘Mother’ is a big term for me with enormous responsibilities. When I conceived my first baby, I had realised how living your dream made you feel. Although my pregnancy wasn’t health-wise smooth at all, and I was working too, but I was happy throughout my pregnancy. The baby in me made me happy and strong.
Now, I am expecting another baby, and obviously I’m very happy these days too. I am a person who is caring and empathetic to the people , people share their problems with me like a good friend. I’m an artist , I give painting lesson to kids . I am aware that I wont be able to continue to teach and paint for my YouTube channel and Facebook page for some time. After realizing that I have meager time, I want to focus on my family and on exploiting my creativity. I Am learning to be selfish, because I only want to feel positive and enthusiastic for my baby. I still hear about people’s share of problems and I give best of my advice. The change in me which I feel is coming to me is that I have started conveying my discomfort to the ones who talk something really nasty all the time . I am glad that now I have garnered the guts to be expressive, I am still gentle but very clear not just in my thoughts but also in my action too . When people talk about their problems , i positively give my ear to them but if someone only grumbles about life and not ready to make any effort irritates me because I feel like talking on something where the next person is just puking his or her bad thoughts on me but does not want to take any step, is a wastage of my time, the time when I need to be happy for my baby and to concentrate on my creativity.
Some people always talk only about how their life is bad to them. sometimes even I as a human being get frustrated in life due to circumstances, but it is our responsibility towards our family and to ourselves to bring happiness to them . Now I have realized if I’m not comfortable in talking to someone, it is better to be clear. If I don’t want to hear negative things all the times, it is better to tell them that you are not ready for their vomit, because no matter what you say and what you do the people , some of them will consider you the pot where they can vomit their bad thoughts but later it will stink your brain whole day. You feel disgusting , not because what is happening in your life but what is happening in other’s life.
Most people do not realise that their words affect others’ life, they need reminders. It does not mean they don’t care for you, they just try to relieve themselves, which is not bad , but if it affects us, we need to inform them. If they really care for you, they will definitely understand, if they don’t you should know what to do next…..prioritize yourself more. Just tell them you do not want negative talks all the time. talk about something elses, their on your own plans in life , etc.
Be a good person by helping others and listening to them but it does not mean you have to them more preference than your priorities. We have a right to stop bringing the mess in our life. And only we can do it. Instead of spoiling my mood for the whole day , now I prefer saying that I don’t want to talk about something which takes away my peace. Believe me , no one bothers how we feel later, they bother about their clearance , they are selfish, so now I know how to stop the entry of bad elements in my life and I am really happy about it . I feel I am respecting myself more than ever and being a pregnant women I have a full right to pass good and positive thoughts to my fetus. I feel stronger, I feel relieved. When you are clear about what you want , it will not change other people ,they will find another pot to puke , but it will bring change in your life, you will be focused and can do more productive things . It is like cleaning the house. NOW, I know how to keep my house (soul and brain) clean.